The Last

The People were furious and demanded some kind of action, but as always nothing happened, as no political party, army, police, or any other organization was prepared to commit treason of such proportions.

By our constitution "no organization or individual can sign the capitulation of the army, nor change the border of the country." Our president broke both rules. Not only did he demoralize and humiliate our army, but he allowed part of the border to stay uncontrolled, and thus lost a part of the country... The things we fought for were forgotten in a single week. I still can hear the echo of his words "no soldier of NATO will walk on our holy land". So if you ask me,he is guilty and he must be punished. How, I am not sure, but often our way is that the leader dies from a suddenly acute medical condition – a sudden heart attack, diseased kidney, or brain damage!

As for the people that stayed in Kosovo, their only chance to save their lives is to find safe passage to Serbia or Montenegro. No one cares for them, no one protects them, and what is worst of all - no one wants them. Every day on every news, you can see men, women and children killed, beaten, raped. People are leaving on foot, trucks, tractors. But no one cares, as this time they are Serbs. No one is responsible for the "pogrom" and no one will be responsible for the exodus, as none of the NATO troops can bring peace and order in Kosovo.

But there is one thing that hurts me even more. We failed to protect our country, and our people. Many died in the war, and they won’t forgive us.. Their children will ask us "why my father died, but you stayed alive?" and I fear that living in eternal shame is even worst than death.

How can I ever look in the eyes of all those people from all around the world who shared our destiny, as they protested against the NATO invasion? What should I tell the Greek girl who was there on the net night after night telling me that all of Greece was with us? And how about those people from F.Y.R Macedonia who set the American embassy on fire in the first days of war? I can't mention all of them, but I know that we failed them all. And because of that I am ashamed. My people have no honor any more.

So we buried our dead, cleared the rubble and debris, and life resumed where the war stopped. We will go on, but the eternal shame will last for many generations to come. And every time I think about this great "victory" I will hope that it is the last one.

Vladimir

P.S.

I am sorry if I am confusing and unclear. Just keep in mind how hard is for me to write about this. I lost a relative in this war, some friends of mine spent months in the trenches - all that for nothing.